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Thursday, April 15, 2004

Whatever.

What a sian life I'm in. I can't stand it. I'm so friggin lonely. Where'd all my frineds go? Oh I forgot. I haven't MADE friends. Well now I'm trying to hang out with this group of Indonesians who studied in Singapore. I think they're better than the ones from Indo itself.. I think those that were in Singapore are much less snobby (whatever you spell that as). But well. They're all older than me. And yay! I know I at least can be siao with them right? haha! Yeah. Well that's my strength. Being siao. Although most of the time I really do try to act sane. But I feel so constipated when I do. Oh well. Well anyway I went to the International club meeting(OKay, It was the INdoneSian club). Well not meeting. Just a gathering, and well since I can't speak indonesian very well, I sorta felt some distance from them. Because I actually need to concentrate to understand. Well I wasn't concentrating all the time and sometimes I snap back into reality and everyone's laughing and I don't know why. So I'm like. "huh?" And they just assume that I don't understand.. Gosh make me feel so extra. Yes, I can't understand hard words, but at least I understand right? Heck, I'm not even Indonesian, WHO CARES? Anyway, the people in my math class are still pretty nice, and they look so fun ^^ I wanna hang out with them. Hey wait, didn't I already say that? hrmmm.

I also wanna know the people in my English class, and their Japanese. But the thing is, it's like they keep speaking Japanese, which I can only catch bits and pieces of.. and sometimes I think that they're not even speaking Japanese haha! Like some kind of dialect. Is there such thing? Or maybe I just don't know enough Jap to understand. Well anyway they don't sound like the anime lehz. Hmm. Must ask Rachel. But anyways they look fun too! haha! So I hope maybe one day I'll get to know them.

Everyday when I get home all I do is check my mail, draw some stuff.. which fiona said "you good! still got time to draw that" lolz! :D and then I never manage to finish my homework. In the morning I go to school and finish it all up in the library. Man, the studying environment there is just perfect. You can hide in a little corner where noone will find you, and then you have a desk all to yourself *smilez* Well it's a big deal to me 'cause I always have to share my table with someone else's stuff. And frankly, it pisses me off sometimes. That's why I can't wait to get my own room. A WHOLE ROOM!! ALL MINE!!! :) I haven't had my own room for a VERY long time. Used to share with my brother until my mom seperated us, and then his bed became my bed and I inherited a room. Then I had my freedom for a short time until my mom decided to move in ~_~. Nothing to say. She remains in there. Frankly, it's more of her room haha! Where's mine? T_T Actually, I wanna have a college life away from my parents. Well I think I can't have that. My mom will always be with me. Too bad. (Man! that means I can't go clubbing! T_T)
Well Okay, I think I'm done writing for today, ciao!

|| Pinch me. || 10:24 PM

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