argh


I haven't managed to get ANY homework done today!! *pulls hair and screams wildly* SO Gonna DIE!. Thank the dean all deadlines are on Friday. I have exactly one day. Gambatte. Met quite a few old classmates today. Seems like they're still leading life as they always have. Quite "hectic". And K who's always on the phone came up to me and said hi. WHILE on the phone. I wonder how the person on the other line felt. hehe.

I feel so proud of myself. I actually went to the Student Acticities Office and demanded a performing arts club. Or when I form it, it shall have a really cool name. Muahaha. You know the funnyh thing? There wasn't such a thing as a performing arts club O__O SUrprise! So I shall have to form it. So Fun^^, but such a big responsibility~__~ *yawn*. So well the director loves the idea, so I think it'll become official pretty soon. ( If I get round to forming it haha) Ahh sweet memories of GrafD.. here I come!! Oh and we get 500 bucks per year. Cool? Not alot but good for a start. What ya guys think? hehe. I was thinking of a dance club. Not that I can dance, but hopefully someone will teach me how? =P yeah talk about forming a club which activities I'm not familiar with. But it just MIGHT make my life better. Plus all the contacts, the experience, how good it'll look if I'm appealing to UW... "Founder of (fill in blank)" WHAHAHAHAHAAAA. *drools* Of course it's because I like performing myself. Duh.

just reporting.

|| Pinch me. || 10:42 PM

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

hrm lag.


this is the first time i'm using the school's computers.. namely the ones in the library.. and i found out a very important thing. they're very very slow. the internet connection i mean. really really slowwww. yeah and i realised another thing. why the hell did i pick this seat?! there's a librarian ( I supposed that's what you call her) who's tinkering with the computer beside me hahaha. well not that anything.. but there's something called being disturbed lol. Yeah anyway I decided to try to improve the readability of my blog. Which means putting caps in where it deems neccessary. Argh. So hard to get into the habit. Jia you ~__~

Somehow don't you liken the typing on a keyboard similar to the playing of a piano? 'Cause it sorta goes in a rhythmic way.. Like "tap tap tap". I find it very theraputic. Whatever you spell that as. Only recently when I have started typing in this blog have I noticed the calming effect it gave. Not of blogging, but of typing. Yes call me a computer freak but to type with a purpose ( aka blog) is simply... interesting. To pour out your soul but punching little keys with your fingers.. ( in my own world... clouds are floating by..). It's really like making music, thus the way I likened it to playing a piano. But seriously, blogging takes quite some time to get the hang off. Yeah I remember the time I first blogged. Not to long ago right? In late February of this year.. I didn't know what to write. What would people think of me while reading this? WOULD PEOPLE EVEN READ THIS AT ALL?!

Now I don't really give a damn. Ah the beauty of psychotic ranting. Jaa.

|| Pinch me. || 10:41 AM

Monday, September 27, 2004

first day of school


I can't say it was the best but it was okay.. started out the day as being quite lonely.. yeah well until i saw my friends.. (indonesians. somehow they all are my friends O__O) Not that i have a grudge against these people, just that since i'm in america.. i want to get to know other cultures. i don't want to stick around something i already know. well i also know that they've been of great help to me.. but just that there's always that feeling that i'm missing out on something. therefore i've decided. tomorrow when i step into technical writing class( the only class that doesn't have the indonesians, thankfully. i mean they'll kinda stick to you, makes it hard for you to make other friends. esp when other people eventually think you're on of them and don't bother socialising with you. aw it's horrible. ) i'm gonna make as many friends as possible ^^ wait. tomorrow there is NO technical writing class. gReAt.

oh i guess i'm trying to improve my layout day by day.. hehe.. i want to put some baloons floating up.. 'cause this new song i've picked you see, well i picture some baloons flaoting up. haha me and my screwed up imagination. before that it was a electric guitar playing somewhere over the rainbow. which i kinda got sick after a while. i wanted the original "somewhere over the rainbow" where there's someone singing, know what i mean? yeah like smooth sounding "somewhere.......over the rainbow.....wayyyy up highhhhhh.." not "eeeeyyuuu.....eeeyu...ey ey ey ey ey uuey .."electric guitars. though really when i first heard it i thought cool. but it really sickens after a while haha.

well i don't think i'll continue putting up the smses.. not for now anyway. 'cause one-- i just realised what a heavy load of work i have taken on. I'm taking the last in the series of calculus aka supposedly the one oyu have to practise the most. and engineering physics, apparently since i haven't been paying attention much during tan tai ha's secondary school physics lessons, i have to work extra hard in this class. and programming, also the last in its series.. it covers into 200 series, so i'm gonna die~~~ and of course technical writing " it's making complexity simple, and not simplicity complex." ~__~ YEAH whateVeR. so guess what? i will have loads of work to do. for my math too ( hell you thought it was good?) because i got a B last quarter.. with a C for integral of volumes and work ( whatever.) and i need A for ALL my subjects T__T to get into school of engineering in the UW ( heard they got real competitive and you need 3.8 GPA MINIMUM O__O) so i REALLY need my A's .. i felt over ambitious when i was in programming class and i announced i highly hope for and expect myself to get a 4.0 ( perfection haha) in csc143. then i realised how hard the assignments were gonna be O__O good luck. ( yeah and i announced it to the whole class. =___= damn pai seh if i don't live up to it ~__~ die die die..)

ARGH. what a nice first day of school. not to mention i haven't even ordered my computing book and my tech writing books need 2 weeks to arrive at my doorstep ( HOW??). and can you believe it? there's physics LAB tomorrow and i don't even know how to do ( or whatever.) a MS excel spreadsheet. what the ?? is that??? ( to think i'm a programming student who knows nuts bout that program =___=)

WARH!! STRESS!!! ( maybe i should have listened to everyone's advice and taken less subjects.)
oh yeah the 2nd reason. ( haha thought i forgot?) I dunno where the charger is.*embaressed grin* hehe.

|| Pinch me. || 3:45 PM

Sunday, September 26, 2004

YAY MY FIRST LAYOUT!!

oh yeah i ripped the pics from the Friend in hand Pub in Aust ( haha) it's of the bouncer dog Sluggo!! hee hee. then the bg is from some high school webbie. i cropped them and put them in tiny pic.. hopefully they don't mind ^^.

|| Pinch me. || 10:31 PM

Saturday, September 25, 2004

SmS nation


Yeah i got nothing to do haha. Just thought that it would be interesting ^^. they're in the order of my handphone (i.e. random order)
OBESE : Hi Nina..Aii. Fancy getting a cold in a hot country... I do have flu medicine..But it's the drowsy kind le..Hehe..

OBESE : Best. Haha... Woke me up.But its fine. Hav fun! I also wan sit plane. Hehe...
Oops. this was on the day of my flight back home and i smsed her in the airport before boarding =P

Fiona: Haha.. Sad, sad.. But i'm straight leh...Why would i be excited to see a chio bu? Haha...And i'm starving too..This is wad they refer to as hell..Hai...
arh now this was when she was chatting to me in her chem class. i said that it'll all be over soon, plus she'll get to see a chio bu like me haha. =X

OBESE : Yo...Wads for dinner later..If u know tell me asap k..? Den see if can join annot. But wan go bowling!Lala...
*sigh* we didnt go bowling after all.. wasted.. but at least i spent that night with very special people on a very special occasion.. -->the celebration of singlehood ( yah fion broke up with her guy haha)

OBESE : Nina..Lalala.. Here s a gOoDByE from piggy. Hav a safe trip home k? Yay. hav fun in tokoyo too.. Look out for cute guys. Hehe... Hugz...
*sniff* bye bye dear piggy.. this was BEFORE i woke her up haha. *refer to above* yea.. and i had fun in tokoyo *winks* =P (tokyo.) exploration thru the eyes of a terminal. hehe.

Grace : Hey gal. U came back s'pore for a trip?
yeah. and i took a week to notify you and we haven't hung out!! T__T arh too bad.

OBESE : (actually i feel very bad arh.. call her obese... summore with caps.. sorry arh.. actually you not fat at all .. just that i keep remembering ur sec 2 nick =P just like mine is kermit.. ) Oh dear..I fell asleep.. Just overshot tam..Hee..Pai sei..Wait ah.. I ll come back. Hee.
yeah she fell asleep lol. this was the day when we hung out with rachel then she zhao for piano rehearsal then after that rach zhao for CIP then lyd came then we waited for rach to zhao from CIP to take neoprint.. haizzzzz but sad sad she tired. Oh man i have utilised really nice english haha..

PHISH : relaxing lah. i ll be there very soon.. and will unextracise u..wahaha
lol i really liked her language so i kept this one haha. yeah i was waiting for her at tanah merah. for the first time in my life i was early. so i felt a bit out of place lol. and yes she unextracised me. hehe just that somehow she managed to make it past me to the platform without me even knowing. haha.

ZZY : Hey nina you didnt tell me you were back. Zzy
yeah i didn't haha sorry.

Fiona : Dotz...I'm so gonna kill u... But then like this u better wear nicer too... Haha...And ask gina dress up too... Haha..And u type very slow.
=___= go die larh. T__T yeah at least i don't type too slow on the com. oh yeah she was gonna kill me cause i told her to wear her boots so she would look more like us (i.e taller) but poor gina in the end couldnt make it due to a tummyache..

Fiona : (I owe her something. like $$ haha. lazy to type what she said.)

Fiona : Eh, wanna go for luch today? Then watch me study? I let off early today..
lol that's what i did. yeah then so lucky i went.. 'cause i saw Qiao Ying!! ^^

Gina : ..bye.. my dearest friend!
my bat just died on me haha. i dunno type correctly or not hehe. bye T__T

Caryn : ( something bout woman with BO and me with woman with stinky breath)
erm. my bat died. hehe. but anyway this was on the way to meet her in woodlands. haha so fun !! we ate sambal hor fun and saw her jie.. who to me looked perfectly 20-something. but she said people think she's 14... erm. yeah maybe. then for the first time i ordered "horlick-ping" HUAHUAHUA....

erm. continue tomorrow?? or when i feel like it haha. jaa!

|| Pinch me. || 7:28 PM

days of my life


haha nothing to do so i shall blog. you won't have much to read by the end of it, i have a really short attention span. i really don't know what's gonna happen in my life, i can only pray that i shall do my best to live me life in a more productive way haha. speaking of which i haven't even ordered all my textbooks. school starts on monday.. wonder if i'll meet new friends? i really don't want to stick around the indonesians to much, i want to know about other cultures, esp american, since i've been missing out on so much since my birth. hehe.

well not say i've missed out that much. well deep down inside i know that somehow i will belong here ( or feel like i belong here) or eventually spend the next part of my life here, yet i wonder why it seems so hard. tsk tsk i guess i really have to step out of my comfort zone and look at the big picture. even though i really enjoy being with my dearest singaporean friends ( yeah the sg ppl you know who you are, i shall not elaborate further) i know that over the years we'll each take our own path ( which is very soon in fact, when you guys all go to uni) and i highly doubt that they'll cross with mine. though i sincerely hope so, the chances are so slim. so i guess i'll just have to cherish the moment hehe. but i'm really scared of losing tghe memories i've had all along. in a different life, it's easy to lose who you once were. will that happen to me? haha and even though you all say you'll miss me.. how much of that is true? argh i don't want to think. i'll probably suffer from brain damage if i do.

my whole family's suffering from jet lag lol. my mom has it the worst though. she actually requested playfully for me to keep her company all night =___= i think she only got round to sleeping at 4-5am.. she was sleeping like a log when i woke up at seven ( of course i can't wake up that early, i was rudely awaken by my alarm clock on my watch.. forgot to turn it off) after which i decided to make pancakes. then in the process i realized i didn't have 2 very crucial items. milk and eggs hahahaa. so i substituted milk with water.. and then my brother came out and i explained the situation so him, by which he replied "what?! why you so toot?!" and then i sent him out to buy eggs lol. made a big mess in the kitchen, but i managed to clean it all up before my mom awoke. at least before i thought she would awake. but she'll still sleeping and my pancakes are left untouched =___=. to think i actually wanted to surprise her haha.

oh well this blog is longer than i've expected.. hermz. i can't wait to develope the photos i took in sg ^^ and post it right here.. i'm sure i looked stupid in some. maybe all. 'cause lydia took me when i said "waIT!!" =P i hope it turns out interesting.



well i shall await the time my mom is sober enough to drive me to the grocery store.. for food and photos ^^

*HYDE - shining over you* ".....sayonaraaaaa--"

|| Pinch me. || 10:34 AM

Friday, September 24, 2004

from sunrise to sunrise


you know, it's amazing how the sunrise looks from the sky. i got up and personal with the sun ( well not exactly, or i would have been scorched to death and that wouldn't be very nice.) and all the colors.. so nice!! ( yeah okay i decided to give up trying to sound complex) even all the cool colors looked so bright!! ( yeah i talking crap : not making sense)

somehow the sunrise was better when i left singapore. i encountered another sunrise approaching USA, the same sunrise on the same day.. so i saw 24th september's sunrise twice. cool? hehe.

oh yeah i bought "memiors of a geisha" really amazing. it's a really different story. life from the view of a geisha. spent most of the time on board the plane reading it. they played "raising helen" (yeah the movie) and sad to say, it bored me to sleep. seriously. just thinking bout it makes me tired.

=SleEPy= nite nite.

|| Pinch me. || 10:45 PM

Saturday, September 04, 2004

homecoming


I'm so excited!! I'm going back tomorrow!! can't wait to EAT ^^

you know, I don't even know where i belong sometimes. although i do indeed feel attached to singapore (must be all that brainwashing during national education >__<) I must admit that while i was there i had a feeling, I've always had that feeling, that i didnt belong there. was it the way people treated me? or was it the way i knew that i wasn't one of them? or was it the way i felt pride everytime i heard the US anthem in the olympics and cheered like a mad idiot in front of the television when i was in Singapore. but now when i switch the channels to the olympics, i wonder where's singapore? did singapore win anything? I want to watch singapore earn its glory! who am i really? i dont know. i'm confused. i'm not indonesian. i really dont feel attached to that country at all. yet they treat me like i'm one of them. sometimes i feel awkward. sometimes i just wish that maybe i was indeed one of them. but there's a problem. I'm Not, and unfortunately i am fully aware of that.

it's just the same with language. my first language is english. but i'm not very good in it. I'm chinese but i suck in it. i'm indonesian (or at least that is what they all say) but i can hardly carry out a full conversation in bahasa indonesia.

And so i have decided i'm lost. not a very big decision. anyone can see that. i've even named mysself the green alien. and people believe me. some people say "oh chyi you're so lucky to have experienced so many different cultures. you're so lucky to have been to so many places" but i dont feel lucky. where do i belong?

I heard some say a home is the family. where you can be yourself. i have my family with me all the time. whether in China or Singapore or Indonesia or USA.. and yes i can always be myself with them. but location wise we're everywhere. and there's different places my own parents call home. my mom remains a true indonesian, my dad loves the USA, my brother.. he's almost singaporean but renounced his PR .. i'm confused really.

Now i read lydia's "come back home nina" and i wonder.. am i really going back home? when i go back to this "home" noone will know me anymore will they? I can't say that i haven't changed, and i'm quite sure they might have changed too. in this aspect i would hate to go back. i mean, what if .. we are no longer friends? sometimes i get jealous of the manzai 3. they're so close. and i wish i could remain that close with them. but no matter how hard i try to run from it, the fact hits me. we've drifted apart.

it's sad.

ARGH >__< cannot turn to the dark side !! NEVER!! peeps I'm gonna see you soon!!! MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!!

God bless.

|| Pinch me. || 6:35 PM

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

camp!!



hear the crashing waves and taste the sea of the ocean, step into the flowing water and let yourself face the mighty strength of the water smashing in to you. then when you finally open your eyes.. "EEW!! SLIME!!" the wonders of pollution. Now imagine my reaction when i realized the salt i was tasting was from THAT slimy water. O___O

Overall i must say i had fun. sleeping out in the wild listening to lizards crawl by our tent and crows pecking at our food that was left out in the open (apparently no one bothered to keep it awaY), plus not showering for 2 entire days (it was too much of a hasle, really.) .. isn't that fun? not to mention the fact that i was kicked around so much in my sleep that i really didnt sleep much at all. oh and i almost had to sleep sitting up. Now after my fruitful 3 hour sleep i awoke to a baby's screaming. Finally i had decided to get out of the tent, only to be greeted by amused stares at my wonderful new hairstyle, created by the disasterous hairdresser of the night. oh jovial day.

later i was splashed with an entire bucket of water and was soaked thru. my aleady semi-transparent shirt became non-existant and showed of the color of my underwear =__= plus all of my underlying fats by which under normal circumstances would not have been noticable. REVENGE!!! armed with water bombs in each hand i hunt down the enemy and TAKE HIM DOWN!!! WHAHAHAHHaaaAAAA!! <--mad woman on the loose forgive me of all grammar mistakes. i can't be bothered. oh. and HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY in Singapore!! AW **** Only 4 more days to my flight and I haven't lost any weight!! >__< DANG.

|| Pinch me. || 2:00 PM

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