csc sucks. Well unless i'm programming games lol :D:D. I hate creating stuff like "you work in a bank. Stimulate the transactions per minute and output" Blahhh. I don't like real world stuff harh. Leave me be in my own world of games, supersubmarines, tall chio fair guys, and cotton candy bubble gum . *sigh* I have 3 more assignments to go.. and then i can fully enjoy my holidays.

Must tell ya all something. I got a new game and I'm so addicted to it :p Fable, only on Xbox. I wanna play Nooowww. Wanted to make my character an evil evil guy.. Muahaha. so exciting. but my bro said try nice guy first. So I TRY and make my character nice. TRY not to steal. TRY not to kill villagers (but actually killed one =X). TRY not to vandalize. Gosh being evil is so much easier. Slaughter all em kan bu shuang.

2 more days to miami! Nina go lose weight now! And haircut! Looking good? Now go get some cutie!! *whahaha*

I'm still fat. But Mickey Mouse will be fatter. Hey guys!! I'm gonna get soo many goodies for ya all! XD Can't post Xmas present in time(well cause I havent bought em of course lol).. So guess you'll get them at.. Chinese new year? Muaha. any requests pls email me ^^

|| Pinch me. || 10:41 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

Ok.. he DOES NOT look like gackt. Like gackt is so much better looking than him HAHAHA. Hey ya all I think if I tell you, you guys will puke or "WHAT???" yeap. You wanna know? I'll email you haha. or I'll post his name somewnere on the site, find it yourself HAHaHAHAA (nina is evil.) Arh his name is in the site. yeap. (just in case someone comes along and knows him and me. and puke because i'm that ugly =__=)

On the lighter side my last exam is tomorrow! Yay! but then.. still got assignments *sigh* And I've grown fatter. ARGh. Will lose weight. Going to miami.. Don't wanna look fat. NO!! I want my cutie guys! =X

Well that's it. go look for his name. If you can't tag me again lol.

|| Pinch me. || 8:33 PM

Monday, December 13, 2004

cliffhanger


Ass. So far away but still thinking of him. Never expected to be infatuated with him again. Can you imagine? AGAIN!! ARGH! WTF??! I have no idea why I think he's good looking LOL. It must be the gackt similarity =X. Arh well sec sch mates, I'm quite sure you all know who he is.. He's quite notorious. In comparism, I'm like a goodie two shoes. (and well you folks know otherwise). So who is this mystery guy? Tag me, and I'll give you a clue. altho I think him being "notorious" is good enough right? Sec 2 EXPRESS (note. not special lol) mates will know. Or sec one express. I mean rach got promoted to special in sec 2 right? I think. All I know is that we all started out as 'expressies'. Yep yep. And he's been an expressie all his sec sch life too. I think. Well hey, I didn't like him anymore after we change class. So obviously I dont remember.

Okay clues for today given!! :D Now to more important stuff, like my finals. Two more left!! and then HOLIDAY!! DisneyWorld here I come!! Not yet. But SOON! Things would be alot more fun with you tho =/ After all it ain't fun screaming on the roller coaster ALONE. My whole family's afraid to go on =__=

(I wonder if I'll ever meet s2c<--sec2 crush again) HAHA.

|| Pinch me. || 10:59 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2004

OMG I just saw his friedster. OMG I'm thinking of him. OMG I thought I forgot him? WTF?? Sec two crush LOL WTF is happening? He's so good looking he can get away with anything. WTF?? Unfair. And I doubt he even noticed me in sec 2. Or ever. WTF?

Arh well must be exam stress (notice all WTF's). Tomorrow math final. Today chiong. Shit right? Heex. ARGH.

I'm gonna see him again =X he'll never know I heck care :D

|| Pinch me. || 10:29 PM

Friday, December 10, 2004

world of oblivion


Wake up in the morning
Forget all that you've felt
Start with a fresh breath
Light step
And things seem so much better
Surreal, happy
Stressed but..
Still beautiful :D

|| Pinch me. || 6:44 PM

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

don't see the point


Don't see the point of liking someone who's heart is clearly with someone else. Don't see the point of going on msn when noone talks to me. Well, of course I'll go online for my babes LOL. I don't think I can stand the thought of not communicating in real time for a year until I get back to Singapore.

Well update on today. I'm never gonna tell him and he's never gonna know. What for? Don't see the point of liking someone who doesn't think you're special. Don't see the point of being around someone when you can't be who you are inside.

Friends too. Sometimes I really don't see the point of hanging out with them when I can't have fun when you are. I mean wth? It's not very nice isn't it? I don't want to have to put up with a fake smile or a fake laugh. And do not want to feel like I'm breaking down everyday.

On the brighter side.. Things will get better right? Definitely. I wish there were more people I could connect to. And to sushi, who is still oblivious and dreaming of someone else, I don't think I'm able to like you anymore :D

Happy days!

|| Pinch me. || 3:08 PM

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

fark it bloody shat.


ARGHHHHH!H!!!!! So much to do so little time!!! Hey I notice a pattern in my GPA. 4.0 ....3.9... 3.3 +___+ BLODDY FARK! but not to worry. I'll do much worse this quarter to bring my GPA pattern to a nice and equal 3.0's. ARGH WHAT THE HELL.

I'm gonna name the guy sushi (lol it's a trend. To blog in peace LOL. Well I'm changing my opinion towards him. Nothing more than an empty shell. I know it's stupid to change your feelinggs for someone because of what someone said. But I can't help it. One "Do you really think he deserves it?" "Actually if you didn't like him, I wouldn't respect him at all"

And then someone else comes along "you know, he's actually not that bad you know.. maybe if you want him to like you you should become more feminine.." O___o

ONE I'm not gonna change for someone who'll obviously never like me. It defeats the purpose if you don't like me for who I am.

TWO Maybe you are just a hollow shell. I don't know.

THREE You absolutely suck! HrmpF! bloody hell that doesn't help.

It's JUST A phase.

Oh yeah on to things that may interest readers more.

Don't you think that some teachers just work because they get to show off their knowledge and no because they actually care about their students?

tag me.

|| Pinch me. || 9:01 PM

Monday, December 06, 2004

just here. just crying.


Well no not exactly crying. But I screw up every exam I encounter, it sux. I'm not gonna get good grades this quarter, I'm positive. Oh ytd something happened.

But I guess I was looking for trouble. Well ya see, I went on friendster and I happened to be bored enough to browse around all the strangers that happen to be friends of my friends etc etc. Well just kept clicking and clicking.. and then came across a testimonial written by === for a nice cutie gal. Like wow. So mushy and all.

I guess I was planning to tell him.

But now I don't think so.

^__^ Jaa.

|| Pinch me. || 10:24 AM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

HAPPY BDAY RACHIE!!


WOW! It must be great having a b'day with all your frens by your side. I've never had one like that. I probably never will =___= Xmas is always a "family" day, and even if it so be a miracle that my parents let me hang out with my friends, they'll probably be sticking around with their families. Get me? HeeX.

Orh on to rachie! lol! I just woke and you go to sleep =___= the wonders of being half way around the world ya? I'll restrain myself and not disturb you with a call, because of your INTERNSHIP!!! So exciting! In a law firm right? OOooo. I'm applying for one in NINTENDO!! Hopefully they'll get my application.

Dear phishie... officially seventeen! Sweet seventeen! (lol that's so corny.) For you it'll be PHISHIE SEVENTEEN!! Whoo hoo! Arm let's see what else I wanna say to this phishie dearest. Take care in that swelteringly hot island of yours, good luck with the internship... N...stay cool gal! :D Miss you lots! (Wonder what you wore on the big day!! I wanna see the pics that marky guy took! :D )

okie. Back to study.

|| Pinch me. || 10:53 AM

Saturday, December 04, 2004

the best gift


pictures of you. with me included, if possible.
a big big ecko unlimited voucher. OMG you should see the clothes! And I looked so hot in that tube and that jacket.. (wow first time describe myself that way) but mom refused to buy the tube. Too hot larh lol. All guys drop at my feet NOW! (well only one in particular. Ok maybe two MUAHAH)
a digi cam so i can record my life in pictures. ^^ till now all my pics are solitary. My life isn't that lonely you know. It just looks that way.

I just wish I meant more. Stop thinking of him. You're distracting me, go away! No don't go away.. *lovelorn* what am I typing about. I dunno. Sound like a despo maniac. This is the first time in a long time I've managed to like someone for more than a month since I stepped into Seattle. Well, I don't like him ALOT.. *denial*

Or do I? Maybe I should just tell him. Khairah says I've already killed off all his feelings he MIGHT have harboured. For me. But when I think about it.. Can't be that much of a deal to him right? Esp since I feel that I'm not close to him and all.
For more information, just email me. Or call. I'd love to hear someone's voice again.

Better get back to work. I had a great day today. Complete with this freak staring at me all the time I was in indocafe. I was only in there for like 15 min wth. WHY was he looking at ME?! WAIT do I know him? NO~!! Then?! But he was quite ok looking larh. HeeX.

Oh must blog this down, didn't ytd. (cause i'm so positive my physics' a goner.. AGAIN *peeved. DEPRESSED.*)Someone said I'm pretty "you're pretty today"!!! O__O SHOCKER I didn't know so myself. So pretending it's all a nice and innocent joke, I went "What do you mean today?! I'm pretty everyday!" and he said "oh, then I must not have noticed it." =___= wth does that mean?

Well I don't care what he thinks. I just think "yeah Nina, I know you're pretty" from the other guy.I don't care if he rolled his eyes. Ignore that part and it's perfect. *sigh* Wth. I always like the impossible.

|| Pinch me. || 11:43 PM

Friday, December 03, 2004

I screwed up my physics big time. I'm so positive I’ll get a 3.0 GPA or something. This is so gonna screw my GPA up. I mean, I had almost perfect GPA... and now I have to put up with this shit because i'm so not bloody facking hardworking enough. So peeved I threw all my "cleanliness" out of the window. I can't stand it!! Why isn't my brain efficient enough??! I wish I could do something BETTER than program!! I'm sick of it!! All my life I have NEVER looked to computers as a career, or something I wanted to do... but because of my dad... and my passions to stand up and finally prove that I can surpass him... I had to go and follow thru with this because I had nothing planned out for myself.

//I want to be smart so I can do all the big things in life I've always wanted to do... And I still want to design/build/live in a submarine... ~__~ I still have that stupid fantasy heeeee. *recall naval academy* that's so out of my league. I'm not physically fit enough, not smart enough, not special enough.

Even to people around me. Maybe I’m no different from the people you pass by on a daily basis. Maybe you don't even see me. What am I??
//above to be ignored.

Self pity should be made a crime. Come on, I’m not that bad. Just that my life is a canvas waiting to be filled.

It’s all Jude law's fault. If he didn't look so hot in U571 I never would have wanted to see a submarine. And I never would have seen one. And I never would have been so fascinated. And....

Maybe... computers aren't so bad. If they're in submarines. :D

|| Pinch me. || 9:06 PM

Thursday, December 02, 2004

I'm gonna do my csc late. Because I cannot, absolutely cannot do badly in physics!! LAST CHANCE! I have no idea why i'm blogging. Should get back to work *winks*

Ciao all.

|| Pinch me. || 2:43 PM

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