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Omg... Now my turn to sampat ^^ Today I had a really nice time talking about how we really hate you. And yes, we really do. Because you called me stupid. :O *jaw drop* and because you're such a meanie. Bloody hell I just wanna rip your farking head off ARGH!!!!! *bloodcurlding scream* =X Arh I know. You're just jealous. Jealous that you're not as cool as HIM! -you're not cool you bloody shit, stop thinking you are.- HAHA. Jealous that deep in your lil puny mind you might not be as smart. Can't you tell that beyond your pretentious face, you're nothing? Can't you tell that beyond our nice and smiley facade, you are very much abhorred? Oh and we smile. Oh yeah we smile because we enjoy seeing you tortured in silence. In silence that you may never know that we hate you. Oh yea.. Because you.. because you CALLED ME STUPID!!!
Arh well what the hell ^^ I'm so evil. So sadistic *tsk tsk*

But heck larh. I'm not angry. REALLY!! Just feel in bitching mood ^^ (though it kinda came out more murderous than bitchy.. ya?)

Actually, I'm pretty happy today!! But Why do I type so slow.. haizz. My typing speed has declined. Need to go online 3-8ing. HAHA.
Still stuck on the application. I have to write an essay bout myself.. That's so hard. =/ how come some ppl can do it so easy?? It's totally unfair. Everyone should be able to tell them selves. Because everyone of us is special. and no particular word can really describe us. But a string of words.. that can be anything.. right? Just like how a string of words can make up a computer language. A single button in a large program.. A single event that happens. But nothing can be put into a word or into a letter. Like.. who is nina? what is she like? a. b. Doesn't say much..
My mind feels so empty. =/ I can't believed i blogged all this ^^.

|| Pinch me. || 6:01 PM

See the sky
with the blue corn moon
shining.. ever so brightly...
peace and calm on the earth tonight
or the morning
or the morning
Sigh as the wonders yawn
Upon which the dawn will spawn.
Slowly creeping
Slowly.. creeping..

So why is which the times
Have tried and past 'em on..
So try as might and run from..
what might have become?

Blinking in the twilight
Suns from another world
Gentle caresseing our night..
as we gently flitter and flutter there.

Twinkle twinkle little star
how I wonder what you are..
up above the night so high
like a diamond in the sky..
tell me tell me
is there life?
for wonders far and wonders bright..
is that you..
who might be me..
hiding out there
in the deep night sky~~

ARGH SOMEONE GIMME INSPIRATION FOR MY uni application!! T__T

|| Pinch me. || 1:18 AM

Thursday, January 27, 2005

there's alot of porn on the web. =/ it's scary to imagine one day you might know someone who's on there. O__o I mean like, we're all kinda that age?

eeew. Oh and I saw a really disgusting pic. Shall not elaborate >_< but it reminded me of lyd telling me bout some tribe that cuts the thingy off gals when they reach puberty and most of them die of infection.

>_< nightmares.

|| Pinch me. || 1:03 AM

Monday, January 24, 2005

Warh liew. Supposed to go into blogger.com to blog and I typed my own webbie into the address bar *knocks head * really nothing to say siaz.

Oh yeah today I want to say that I'm sorry I was so bad about saying I don't care that it's ur bday. ....... actually I really dont care HAHAHA. After all you didn't even talk to me today, so whatever. And I had to find out from pei2 that it's your bday. So that's why I don't care. Doesn't make a diff, just that I said it damn loud HAHAHAH So trying to redeem myself.

ermmmm well that's it.. panicking cause it's exam week.O__o well now I finally know who Ayano's bf is. har har har. Now maybe since I know them both, I can steal doughnuts from them .. :D

|| Pinch me. || 9:37 PM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

I want to commit suicide. bye all.



alot of impact right?
Just goes to show if someone close to you says that, you'll be damn worried. It'll be like "why???" and too bad that person is gone and we'll never find out. hah. Don't you see??
And it hurts when all along I thought you were ok and you start blogging all that stuff.. we're all worried sick!!
And now I can't even be there for you so you'll have to fight on your own. WAIT!! THERE'S ALWAYS EMAIL!!!

There's always something to live for, even if we don't see it.

So don't throw your soul away. Cause we love you. For who you really are.

Always.

:)
ryn ryn we love you ^^ !!!!! dun do anything toopid i'm warning you =__= AND TELL UR JIE DUN BE TOOPID!! SLAP HER OR SOMETHING!! I mean, how can you just DIE becuase of that?? You have to FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!! Grr!! Jia YOU!! p.s. the text below is just for drama. :P dun bloody follow what i type in real life +__+ I fly there and kick you arh.

release no visible names. On the other hand, I can't believe I typed this in a blog =/. Should be in some private letter or something that someone will find 3 years after my death. Then there's more impact. HArh.

|| Pinch me. || 5:05 PM

Now that i finished talking to rach on msn.. shall turn my attention to myself and the world that wants to listen. =]

starting a new comic today. (see how much this gal procrastinates it's amazing) I should be studying. Yet the whole day was spent watching tv and sleeping. A gal's gotta rest but not that much right? Not to mention I still hate my hair. Stupid hairdresser.

Comic : the adventures of pik. starring pik and boozaka man and lil doink.

plot: darnoe. that's why it's an adventure HAHAHA..

the characters look different from what I usually draw, so ppl who I've taught my original style to won't copy this one HAHAHAA. Just kidding. You may do so until I get my copyright.
The bodies are still stick figurely the same. I can't draw human beings. Already told you. So I make them look like chicken feet HAHA.

well anyway that's all.

CUte guy in bball court ytd!! Same cute guy I've been talking about!! HAHAHA, after 3 mths I have finally seen his kawaii face again. aww.

Jaa. ^__^

caryn check ur email. O__o *worried* and i didn't know you still go on irc. oooo

|| Pinch me. || 2:34 AM

Thursday, January 20, 2005

why...


why is everyone that matters to me sad?
I can only love at a distance.
and I can't help..
how useless am i??

Think sadness is contagious. Just like the ever so corny "you jump I jump". Seriously. You see ppl happy.. but that doesn't neccessarily make you happy.. But when you see someone you care about is sad..
It hits you, hard.
Like you want to tell the rain to stop and the sun to keep shining on them.. forever.
And you want to tell the whole world to bugger off and let em have a moment for themselves where they can chill and cry they're heart out and noone will ridicule them.
Like you want to be there for them and tell them that no matter what we'll always stick together.

WHY??? Argh why think so much. I shall go do some happier stuff. HAHAHa. OMG so self centered tsk tsk.

|| Pinch me. || 10:14 PM

HERM I wanna join the Korean association. There's a cute guy. HAHAHA.


The end of nina's inspirational quote. HAHAHA.

|| Pinch me. || 2:47 PM

Sunday, January 16, 2005

I love reading rachel's blog. It sounds so deep. WOW. Looky at mine LOL. there's like only 2 things that I talk about. Anger. and GUYS HAHAHAHAAA. Oh I so dearly wanted to tell rachel that her blog is so so so so great, but guess what, her Toopid thingy what-cha-call-it is down. her taggie.


boink.

Now the reason why yours truly has never stopped once to think about what-now-ism is because she has never managed to complete whatever-is-to-be-done. Though she has indeed said continuously, "now I shall do this!!" but she has failed repeatedly. Her life is but a simple rat race with her own lil singular mind. Yes, not with anyone, not with her peers as she so chooses to believe. And sometimes despite herself she begins to despise what a puny lil being she is. Not that she isn't able to catch up with them, just that she hasn't found a way to tap into the energy that perhaps, lies deep within her. If one day this girl-soon-to-be-woman wakes up from her little dream of candy bars and chocolate and there-will-always-be-tomorrow mentality, will she suddenly stare into oblivion and see that there's ... nothing there? She doesn't know. For now she feels trapped like a little robot, constricted by society and unable to excel, she can't do anything, and she's confused, and she doesn't know what to do, and she feels that one day her life may just slip away...

She doesn't have anything to claim to her name. Her entire record is filled but with the writings of others. When can she start to write her own story? To pick up the feather of truth and scribble away and to tell the world WHATEVER you want and not have a care in the world! To reveal a story written from the depths of her soul, because that is what truly makes her her... and not what everyone tells her what she should be.. When can she do that?

I'll spend my life chasing after dreams I cannot catch. But I hope that I will at least be able to run through the meadows, cross the seas, soar the horizon.. and embrace in the wonders of what I could be.. If only.


tonki tonk.


How much you think I can get for that? An A? =X you think I got so deep arh?? :O Just trying to act inspirational. [You all know I'm not] MUAHAHA.

|| Pinch me. || 9:06 PM

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

first day of school. OOOh yipeee.

Guess what? I only have TWO classes. each of them is FIFTY minutes. SHiok or not??? hahaha well that's because I dropped out of the other two (lOl yeha I used to have FOUR classes) Now, why is this gal so lazy? No it's not me. The school just refuses to let me sign up for chemistry. Like what is this? Don't I look intelligent enough? HAHAHAHA no larh they somehow need PROOF that I have taken chem before. Like, I won't blow up the school or anything. Right? Now don't give me that look.

So well I'm still stuck with a horrible grade for computing, my best subject. And I'm staring at the keyboard while I type although I don't have to. What is this? Insecurity??!!

Hrmmm a class without *ahems* arhh not bad. well the next class will have plenty.

Oh and can I ask you something. WHY THE HELL DOES A COM ENGINEER NEED THERMO DYNAMICS???! *nose flare*
it's a mistake in the UW requirements. They put the CHEM ENGINRING requirements into the COM ENGINEERING prereqs. Like WTH??

Ok.. erm nothing to say liaoz. I still havent sent the Xmas cards =__=

|| Pinch me. || 10:38 AM

Saturday, January 01, 2005

green eggs and ham


HAHAHAHHAHAA O TOWN WAS FUN! (oh yeah well..) green green green. green eyes green chocolate green drinks, some of the things you can find green. I thought germans were pretty harsh looking but now, I am a changed person. O__o epcot germany has some of the cutest guys around :D oh and I loved the norway ride. so many chio and shuai ppl there =/

saw santa. this one had a real beard. I love roller coasters! have you rode on one in THE DARK? O__O OH so thrilling. Adrenaline rush man. A true adrenaline rush. Next time you go to Universal Studios Orlando, ride The Mummy. Well unless you're like my parents. they had serious motion sickness.

And NEVER NEVER ride water rides during winter. Brr. Got sick after that. First my bro then my mom and then me. well they're still sick. (I'm ok. :D)

well that's it. Maybe I'll post some pics if I'm not lazy :D

Oh and I'm already 17. *sigh* Happy New Year ya'll!

|| Pinch me. || 7:26 PM

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