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break.
I'm close to it. I really am.
I can feel that I'm breaking down when suddenly I lose the will to know people. To reach out to them.
To listen to them.
When the voice inside is screaming but I can't say anything. I can't tell anyone anything.
Because noone gets it.
Everyone's fooled by me.
It's great coz noone knows how weak I am. Noone knows how much I want to run away.
But it's harsh because noone knows that I'm cracking. That my facade is fading. And that one day they won't know me anymore.
I'm sure there's people who know the real nina, the coward that I am. I'm sure they're trying to get to me. But yes, it's me. It's all me who doesn't want you to care.
Why am I so dramatic? Because I can't face the fact that I'm so stupid.
*sigh* I got the lowest score in class, again.
It's even more sad because I taught someone and she got 30 points higher than me *sobs*.
WHY IS IT WHEN PEOPLE PUSH ME DOWN I CAN TAKE IT BUT I CAN'T TAKE A FEW NUMBERS ON PAPER?!?!?!?
I bet you regretted asking me to study with you. Yes, "you guys are no help".
that's true. haha. now you've realized huh.
I don't know why people want to study with me. I don't. and you know, I guess now you don't too. =/
I talk too much, truly. All that crap about me wanting to be a leader. haha. fools can't be leaders.
I mean, would you want to follow me? When the best I can promise you is that we'll all try hard together, and that we laugh and that you will never be alone. And the most I can do is guide you, and watch you soar. You won't see me fall, of course, because I'll be behind you all the way.
Yeah, guess that's the kind of leader that I am.. always only trying.
ahhh *brushes dust off* well!
FARK ALL THOSE (^&^%*&^% EXAMS FOR THEY CAN'T SEE NINA'S WORTH!!
I'm better than a 50%!!
Because NINA IS 100%!!!
FARK YOU!!!!
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