poker!


Today BAP held a Casino Royale social with 20 tubs of ColdStone ice cream! Even though my original intention was to gorge myself with food, I ended up sitting at a poker table and decided "what the heck, let's play!". Thus I sacrificed my stuffing-face-with-glorious-oh-glorious-ice-cream time to reap in almost the whole table's chips.

Then... my beginner's luck betrayed me when I went for an all-in!! XD but at least one of us at the table got a prize! Good job Queenie! <-- isn't that a cute name!!

I want to know more whites. I cant stay in the safety net of Asians. Just because they look different from me doesn't mean that I have to be scared of them. We're all human right? Why is it easier to talk to Asians? Baffling.

But now that I know how to play poker (tho my face gives away my cards ALL THE TIME LOL) I can always use the line "hey, do you play poker?"

YES NINA GO!!

I got to know ONE new person. :D

There are many friendly people around!

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There was once this girl in N's life
who came in and took all her stress away. Finally, N thought, there's a friend who will be there to play with me! (yes. play. I still like to play.) But what she took away she put back in double, for you see, her brain power was 4 times N's. The girl played because she knew she could play and finish her homework before going to bed. But N couldn't keep up.

But this girl didn't care about N even though N wanted a friend. N wanted to be her friend. But this girl didn't care. This girl thought of N as "someone who is here to play with me. if she ever leaves, then it's ok, because she's the past, and there'll always be people to play with me". N found that out.

N was mad. N wanted to tell her "look at me! I'm not just someone you can store in your file of 'used and gone'!" But N knows she cant tell her that. Because the girl doesn't care. N felt used. N started disliking her. N turned to someone else for help. N listened to that someone else's story about this girl. N started protecting someone else. N believed someone else, refusing to listen to what this girl had to say.

This time N was wrong. This girl's story was true. N always found things out the hard way.

But now that N knows the truth, N thinks "what's the point in having me listen to all your woes and comfort you, when I know that you'll never be there when I need you?". N doesn't want that. N doesn't know why she thinks of this girl as a friend.

You can't call someone you don't care about a "friend".

Now N doesn't know who to share things with. N just realized that both someone else and this girl aren't people N can count on.

I want to go to sg now and hug all my friends who are always there for me. I love you guys :D

|| Pinch me. || 1:01 AM

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